Life is always so good when it is your own. When you have control of your own life, you can have the upper hand in all areas of it-sure it may be hard to be on top of the game when it comes to opinions and suggestions, but there should always be a filter on what you allow to affect your OWN intuitions in your day to day life. Nobody can live my life for me, yet lots of people have tried. Nobody can walk a mile in my shoes, yet lots of people have tried to take one step. Course I do wear high heels so that might be a problem!! (more…)

ACCEPT ME

I am I
Do not change me
condemn me
nor put me down
Accept me for what I am
No…you need not agree with me
But accept me
for I am total in being
I have my faults
I have my guilts
But that is who I am
Perfect I will never be
Allow me to be uninhibited
Do not pressure me into feeling
what I do not feel
Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accepted you when
you were flying high
Do not put me down…nor make
me feel unhappy about me
I am I
and I like being what I am
ME

Larry S Chengges

(I found this poem on one of those small placards that you hang on your wall so I keep it on mine )

Got this in an email from a friend-it was REALLY good up until the part where it said that I needed to send it off to 10 people or else I would be cursed for 10 years in my relationships! haha Gotta love a threat…needless to say, I am only posting it here and not listening to the evil emailer person!! hee hee!!

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said…no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever….and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said….

You’re not pretty you’re beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away…I’d die…

I am a very healthy person and thankfully for now, it is all normal. I do take my good vitamins but feel that maybe I should exercise more to get the heart pumping! At any rate, I go to the family doctor every year for an annual checkup. I started doing that many years ago. Then at one point I just let the years slip by without making an appointment because I was too afraid to go. No reason to be, but when you turn on the news and hear that everyone and their dog is getting diabetes or cancer or some sick disease, it is easy to think that the doctor is going to say something nasty to you. Especially when you hear people on talk shows say, “It is something that happened to OTHER people-never me”…GAH THEN I AM NEXT!! (more…)

My friend Alicia linked me to a whole bunch of online poems and I found one that just stood out for me-it speaks everything that I have been thinking of the past few days. The site is a good one…. www.lovepoemsandquotes.com

For You Are The One

For you I would climb
The highest mountain peak
Swim the deepest ocean
Your love I do seek.

For you I would cross
The rivers most wide
Walk the hottest desert sand
To have you by my side.

For you are the one
Who makes me whole
You’ve captured my heart
And touched my soul.

For you are the one
That stepped out of my dreams
Gave me new hope
Showed me what love means.

For you alone
Are my reason to live
For the compassion you show
And the care that you give.

You came into my life
And made me complete
Each time I see you
My heart skips a beat.

For you define beauty
In both body and mind
Your soft, gentle face
More beauty I’ll ne’er find.

For you are the one
God sent from above
The angel I needed
For whom I do love

- Chris Messick -

*Even though this written by a guy, I have to dedicate it to MY guy who has deemed worthy of every word written here and more.

How annoying…as a musician and teacher I have an idea and image of what type of atmosphere students should be in to learn. I love my job-it isn’t even a job for me..more a way of life. However, some days I just want to SCREAM at the powers that be when they don’t show as much care for their clientelle. The music school where I work at is a HUGE one..must cost thousands a month to run and is the largest academy in Canada. Not bad…the lady who started it is a humble and hard working woman-all for which I GREATLY respect to the highest. It takes alot of power to start from nothing and become a booming business by the time you hit your mid 50s. She started off as an organist just like I did…then she was a performer, as I was and a teacher, as I am…she branched off into her own business and worked her way up. She did it the hard way. (more…)

Tonight was my first time going to watch a murder mystery at a dinner theatre in Calgary. A friend of mine and myself had been talking about plays and food on MSN one night, and then she suggested that we go to the historic Deane House which was built in the early 1900s. It is said to have ghosts in it and be completely haunted. I remember through highschool my drama teacher, Mrs Kerbes used to talk about it all the time. She used to work there as an actress and her hubby Hal Kerbas (and Mrs Kerbes) run their Shadow Productions company from that house as well! Any talk of ghosts scares me but I thought it would be awesome to FINALLY check out this place!! (more…)

Ahhh Edmonton…a great city….ooooo the FantasyLand Hotel a place of immense excitement and visual indulgance. A few weeks ago I had decided that I wanted to go to Edmonton as a sort of last hurrah to the summer…so I asked Russ if he wanted to join me and thankfully he was all for it. I certainly didn’t want to do something fun and exciting without him! Edmonton is his homeland-well St. Albert …so it was nice of him to want to join me even for a day or two. So as the days progressed I decided that for ONCE in my life it would be nice to stay in one of the Fantasyland theme rooms.I remember going there with my parents years and years ago and we had stayed in the Polynesian room. Polynesian Room (more…)

Almost a week since this Scarlet O’Hara claimed that I will NEVER go to bed at 5:00 am again!! Well….did it happen? Did I ACTUALLY follow my own intentions?? Well to recall back what I had said, I believe I had written that this week I would aim to go to bed between 3:00 and 3:30 am. Well I was able to get to bed around 3:45 ish a few times…then 4:00 am….then 5:00 am..GAH! It got worse as the week wore on..and it was nobodys fault but my own. My clock really doesn’t WANT me to go to bed early…so I have had a hard time with it actually. There is something which happens where it comes to 2:30 am and I wake up!! So NEXT week I am gonna aim to for SURE be off the computer by 3:00 am…and I really gotta be good about this or else I will be a complete mess when school starts. I still have a good 3 weeks till that happens but I am desperately gonna try and be good!! I somehow need to make myself tired earlier in the evening..I think coming on the internet actually wakes me up even more..too many things to look at!!

At any rate…starting Wednesday night, I will aim for an earlier bedtime…even if it is 3:00 am, for ME that will be early enough at least for now…until then, maybe I will do what any dieter does BEFORE they start a diet….go on a non sleeping rampage so that I can get it out of my system and then start fresh on Wednesday and work on a routine!

Wish me luck….lord knows I will NEED it!!!

It has been many years since I have driven my mom around the town in my car, and today I remembered WHY I don’t like to drive her around. She is the momma..and feels that because she IS the momma, she is Gods gift to any passenger that is in her car. Albeit, she is a safe driver and has gotten me to work and school in the WORST of weather. So I can’t be too mean about her road rage on me everytime she has been the passenger in MY car! I remember driving with my family MANY times down to the USA and doing 14 hour drives straight. My mom would always yell at my dad for speeding, slamming the breaks and passing on curves, of course, my dad was and still IS a psychotic driver. Though he has never been in an accident, he is like the driver of doom when he starts talking and talking and forgets that he is in a car and should be driving. Even now I have to tell him that maybe it isn’t a good idea to drive 140 on an 80 road! (more…)